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johanrapper:

satisfiedcat:

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theunbreakablev0w:

a tv show isn’t good unless it makes you want to die

Does “Monster” make people want to die? Well, it could have done that to me…but…no.  Naoki Urasawa wouldn’t do that to people…

In an emotional way, yes, but in a literal sense, no.

Monster makes me want to die in every way

Well, to be honest, I don’t feel like like “Monster” is killing me emotionally anymore than the real world is trying to kill me emotionally.  As far as I know, the real world is not trying to do so intentionally.  Ironically, Tumblr is doing a better job of “killing” me emotionally with all of its glitches, but thou shall not succeed lest thou art an utter fool.  Whenever I think of wanting to die inside, I think of the meme that says, “I don’t want to live on this planet anymore.”  Well, I take it as an expression of wanting to escape this wacky wayward backwards world we live in any way we can get it.  I admit plenty of times it’s very hard not to feel like wanting to disappear, but still I digress…I am certain that Urasawa was definitely not trying to kill me emotionally. 

(Source: fullmetal-dipshit)

theunbreakablev0w:

a tv show isn’t good unless it makes you want to die

Does “Monster” make people want to die? Well, it could have done that to me…but…no.  Naoki Urasawa wouldn’t do that to people…

(Source: fullmetal-dipshit)

toongal asked: Johan. Apples. XDDDDD

What deep life long lesson did I learn from “Monster”? HE’S TOO DEEP AND EDGY FOR YOU TO UNDERSTAND…YOU ONLY WANT HIS APPLES.  BUT THE APPLES ARE GOING TO HURT YOU REALLY BAD…INSIDE YOUR HEART AND SOUL…BUT IT’LL TASTE REALLY AWESOME AS IT DESTROYS YOU! ALL YOU CAN DO IS SIT THERE LIKE A CHILD WHO IS ABSENT IN SCHOOL AND PRETEND YOU DON’T EXIST BECAUSE YOU REALLY AREN’T PRESENT ANYMORE BECAUSE YOU’RE NOT GETTING ENOUGH AIR TO BREATHE AND YOUR NAME IS BEING CALLED.  YOU’RE IN YOUR UNDERWEAR, AND YOU’RE JUST DONE FOR…YOU THINK YOU BLEW IT.  YOU’RE GOING TO DIE AND NOT BE ANYWHERE FOR ANYONE ANYMORE.  BUT NOW YOU’RE INEXPLICABLY FLOATING INTO TENMA’S ARMS LIKE A POPPED BALLOON…AND HE SAYS JOHAN LIEBERT MUST STOP POPPING EVERYONE FOR GOOD.  HE MUST STOP BEING SO SHARP, POINTY, AND EDGY…END OF WHACKED OUT DRAMATIC DREAM.  FRANKENSTORM SANDYJOHAN WILL NOW BE LEAVING YOU ALONE.  JOHAN IS TRUCKLOADS OF SANDBAGS AND EVACUATIONS OF EDGY FUN I TELL YOU.  Whew…”Monster” that show is full of crazy good times I tell you…good times.  I guess I’m going to have to make a post about how we all should make a podcast about our impressions of our own podcast or at least us trying to talk to our past selves.  We should totally make one of those nutty meta podcasts—I can see it now!

(BEWARE NEW COMERS: SPOILERS EVERYWHERE!)

Once upon a time, Johan asked if Tenma finally understood what Johan meant when he said that, “All lives are only equal in death?” Tenma’s only response was keeping his gun pointed at Johan.  Johan then proceeded to point at his forehead as he beckoned Tenma to shoot…

*Ahem,* earlier, I wrote in a comment on my-bloody-ear that in a way, Tenma would be like the “parent” who would make the finite choice to end Johan’s bloody terror once and for all like a “good parent” should.  I said that perhaps if Tenma was unhappy with the decision he had made, he could always take his own life to make amends.  Yeah, crazy, right?… 

So what if Johan really did think that it was his duty to make Tenma see that if he didn’t like what he had done, he could just wipe all the bad memories by taking a gun to his own head? What if Johan was insinuating that Tenma was an admirable person who was doing the right thing no matter what he did, but if Tenma couldn’t appreciate it, he would undeniably choose death? Or rather maybe he’s insinuating a “good parent” who would shoot or abandon his/her “child” should probably kill themselves anyway… 

In general, it seems like Johan believed that it made more sense people would choose death instead of life, since death was the only means of truly undoing or erasing the memory of things they had done at what the individual saw was his/her lowest, treacherous, or most humiliating point—nothing else.  I think he pretty much acknowledged something along this line when he said he was trying to make everybody go to the same “place.”

What if he believed he had a chance of getting Tenma to willingly go to this same “place” or same “side,” too? So, Johan kept standing in front of the “beginning” of every potential loophole Tenma could find in order to escape shooting Johan, and Johan kept standing at the “end” of every potential loophole Tenma could find—sort of like that tank man who stood in front of a line of tanks at Tiananmen Square everywhere it went.  So, it was Johan’s intention to keep doing so until Tenma finally gave into his desperate plan, right? 

However, there’s a possibility that seeing Tenma seriously look like he was going to shoot Johan made him a little troubled/anxious/concerned (AKA the infamous puppy dog look) at what he was making Tenma do.  I think you could almost say that Johan all of a sudden for a split second knew that being shot by Tenma would hurt him in the most unimaginable way of all kind of like being shot by a real parent or run over by a real tank.  I think for a split second he really wasn’t sure if he wanted or didn’t want to cause this kind of pain to anybody or anything including himself. 

Then all of a sudden…WHAM! Wim’s father put an end to the endless cycle of torture and harassment for both of them regardless of whichever individual was most responsible for causing it.  Wim’s father saw Johan instantaneously as a horrendous monster because he was pointing a gun at his son and that was that. 

I guess, in my opinion, the ending isn’t much of a cop out at all, since Johan’s insistence on Tenma shooting him to prove, “All lives are equal only in death,” turned out to be a more and more forced and unnecessary manipulative tactic to pressure further injustice done to everyone else who knew him to possibly go kill themselves. 

I think Nina all of a sudden going out of her way to forgive Johan’s treachery made him openly acknowledge that it was unnecessary to concoct such a tremendous force of pressure all along, but it was too late to turn things around nor did he want to live any longer.

(I felt like all that crap I tried to write on johan rapper’s post felt too disjointed, unclear, and leaning towards being completely inaccurate.    

Plus, this kind of stuff just doesn’t really belong on my Christoph blog…no duh.  He would never say anything like this 99.99999% of the time, so who am I kidding? It is wrong, and is not being put in its proper category to say the least.)

So for those of you who have no idea what this is about…it’s basically just me expressing my opinions about whether there truly is a basis to having a right or a wrong or if it’s all just stupid crap people made up to torture ourselves.  

Okay, let’s start off by pretending you’re trying to keep a flame alive from being burned out.  You only get one source of flame, and that’s the only chance you get to keep it alive.  You can make another flame very easily, but that’s not really the point, is it?

If the objective is to keep the flame from being burned out and it gets burned out, you can quickly conclude this is either an error or a fault that belongs to either you specifically, the flame, the air, the whole universe, mushi, etc.  So, which of these is more likely to be true?

Do you know what’s likely? There will appear to be a truth to all possibilities, and you will proceed to confuse yourself in numerous ways.  Unfortunately, you or I tend to lament or grieve and curse our limitations, and we might just throw ourselves down upon the ground calling up to the sky for somebody to save us from the wrongs we have made.  

Yes, you and I instantly reject that we’ve have tried to give truth to all possibilities in the universe, and we call it a massive brain fart.   When you or I try to do everything all by ourselves with many limitations and dubious judgment, we brain fart…

It’s generally simple…rights and wrongs are a part of our day to day conduct, and they are very matter of fact on this planet for us humans if not because we simply brain fart.  Just because we can’t agree on whether a regular fart is more of a stinker than another fart, doesn’t mean horrible flatulence doesn’t exist when the effects are right in front of us.  It just means our explanations and definitions are limited, and do not cover the basis of everything or the whole of existence.

Yes, basically, trying to determine what is right or wrong is like trying to determine what stinks up the place more than anything else without stinking up the place yourself, especially when we all must fart.  It is kind of like something that can be detected like methane or carbon monoxide, and we can interpret it as good and bad that we’re taking it in based on the effect it has on us or others.  

Yes, we are all different from one another, but I implore you that there is a smell out there that will take us all down indiscriminately.  If it seems like some people are immune to it, it’s highly likely because they’re wearing a gas mask or have a major sinus or cold.  

You see, we have the ability to find reasonable explanations rather than having to come up with a million different explanations.  When, satisfiedcat, says there is no right or wrong, I would strongly advise anybody not to come up with a million explanations like I tried to do.  

People who are far smarter than I am can simplify things much better than I can.  I can assure you even these people will say this or that is the right idea…this or that on the other hand is not the right idea without sounding like a prick.  I, on the other hand, struggle greatly trying to say things without sounding like a prick or sounding preachy.  

So yeah, in my opinion, if there’s a truth to something and a basis to it, we will unintentionally torture ourselves with it or try to get rid of it like a pest.  We just don’t like looking like fools, being told we’re at fault, being scolded, or being caught red handed.  

The fact that people act like this tells me that we very much need a system of identifying rights and wrongs in place.  Since we’ve created a system of rights and wrongs; therefore, they in a broad sense exist wherever they’re supposed to apply.  

Okay, this turned out to be a much more detailed post than I was expecting to write for Johan.  It sure did take me a few hours to get my thoughts to come pouring out, but it was definitely worth it.  *Sigh,* now I have to figure out how I’m going to write more introspection of this caliber for the next 5 characters. 

How I feel about this character:

Johan is probably the only villain I’ve ever claimed is both my favorite villain and character (Boy oh boy, I have a hard time articulating why.)  He is very infamous for being a very mysterious person and exceedingly challenging to understand, but currently it’s my job and Lunge’s job to crack it.   

First off, I think in direct contrast with Tenma he is very guarded, deflective, subversive, and secretive like a seal tight ziploc bag.  I think if there were an actual monster inside of him, it would be dead or dying because of how suffocating his insides are, which would be the opposite of what you or I would expect, right?

Also, I think that he is very much like a hot lava lamp, so he is kind of like that old thing that is left in the attic in actuality.  He thinks everybody should cherish that old hot lava lamp thing left in the attic.  Indeed, he’s right! Everybody does like it and many people have it, but nobody really knows why or remembers what they got it for exactly.      

I think he feels like he’s not sure whether he should be glad he’s that thing in the attic or not.  I bet he even chose to sleep in the attic, the basement, or the closet out of his own free will every time he moved in with a new set of foster parents.  I bet they thought he was the most awesom-est non existent child they ever had, and he even tried to pay the expenses for himself like a well mannered non-important guest would. 

You’d think these people wouldn’t allow a child to become too overworked, but noooo…he probably doesn’t even have a resume or anything like that.  He probably only keeps his list of achievements on a scrap piece of paper, and he scribbles things out in his sloppy handwriting so that people can’t understand what he writes anyway.  Sometimes I bet he can’t even understand what he writes, and I suppose this gets awkward. 

I bet he can’t even be bothered to try to make his handwriting neater, and he may even like it that way.  I think this attitude of his is why he has problems with taking good care of things like his stack of personal information or any loose leaf papers that he tends to just let fly out the window. 

If the pieces of paper somehow are able to fly back home, he burns them in punishment, and I am almost 99% certain of this.  His irresponsible foster parents are too fat, happy, and lazy to do anything about it. 

Ironically, I wouldn’t be surprised if his foster parents got so fat and lazy he sometimes had to execute them in order to ease their suffering.  I am certain he could help them exercise more often, but he’s fairly careless himself and he doesn’t want to. 

I wouldn’t be surprised if Johan has very fast metabolism, otherwise he’d be pretty darn huge by now; therefore, because he’s one of those lucky guys who almost never gains weight, I can only presume he must have a big ego to go along with his superior physique even though he looks kind of nerdy. 

However, I can’t help but note that the tall, thin, and handsome nerdy types tend to have the biggest egos, but they may be very unstable or insecure to go along with the over the top big ego. 

Also, I can’t help but feel like Johan is tentatively modern, edgy, funny, and cool because he would likely appreciate all the cynicism, snark, and sarcasm people like me and other fans use on the internet to describe him.

Last but not least, I have no idea whether to say Johan is pretentious or not.  Yes, no, maybe, I don’t know…all I can say is that he’s an exceedingly interesting if not frustrating person to think, write, or talk about, though.  I know that Eva hates his ass more than anybody else, and I don’t know who to feel more afraid for Johan or Eva.   

All the people I ship romantically with this character:
I don’t really think anybody should be shipped with Johan romantically, except for Suk in a light hearted way.  The library woman would have been a very interesting match for him, but for her own sanity, I’m going to say, “Thanks but no thanks.”

My non-romantic OTP for this character:
I think that anybody who is awesome enough to stand in Johan’s presence without flinching or cringing too much would make a good non-romantic OTP.  So, I guess that eliminates almost everybody…

My unpopular opinion about this character:
I think there are so many things I could gripe about with the way Johan is portrayed in the fandom that just bugs me, such as BDSM, incest, nude fan art, hentai, moefied fan art, etc.  Cross dressing fan art is okay, but it’s certainly over used a little.

One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon:
I wanted Johan to talk more in the show, and I don’t really care if this makes him less mythical either.  It’d be really nice if he’d just sit back and talk to us about stuff…any stuff either alone, with Tenma, his sister, or anybody.

Thank you very much for the requests I got on my other account my-bloody-ear! I had a total of seven characters I was requested to express my opinions about. (Tenma, Johan, Lunge, Christoph, Dieter, Eva, and Hugo Bernhardt)

How I feel about this character:

Kenzou Tenma is one of my favorite characters in the show that’s for sure, but why? I guess because he feels like what a good parent or any good model citizen should be.  I think the thing he’s afraid of the most of is losing his mind, his skills, or doing inane things like drugs or any sort of addictions or something like that. 

Ultimately, he just wants to be on equal ground and equal terms with everybody, and hence why he sort of ends up with clingy people or being taken advantage of.  I think he’s often misunderstood by others in many ways; however, he’s simply more cautious and reserved, but he most certainly is not normally defensive, guarded, deeply insecure, or hiding things. 

It is so refreshing that he seems to deeply believe that every good deed makes the world go around, and we humans are a welcome, very much needed part of its cadence.  He has a very lovely, healthy, youthful, and vibrant outlook on life that I think more people should take a page or two from his book. 

It’s apparent he’s certainly the modest and selfless type of person who doesn’t crave material things or infamy, and he would rather exchange them all for smiles, laughter, loyalty, and companionship.  I would think he could relate very well with animals, children, and old people, and sure enough he nearly lost it when he was instructed not to perform surgery on a child. 

I think these sorts of things are his biggest weak spot, but who the heck can blame him, right? However, it’s very sad to see him doubt his self worth or second guess himself, and you just want to scream at him to stop doing that! It just seems that he’s very sensitive at times due to his big heart, and it’s tough to make him snap out of it. 

Overall, I just relate to him so much and so often, and he truly does feel like a real person to me.  It also touches me deep down when I think about how many people in the fandom feel this way about him, too.  It’s like we would all do everything we could to help get him out of danger or simply just to cheer him up. 

I think we all deserve someone like him in our lives who would do the same for us.  Tenma most certainly brings out the best in us all, and I would go so far to say that I think THIS is the compassionate love that all humans are capable of expressing.  It’s really hard to say that evil is an intrinsic part of human nature thanks to him.  I feel that there’s nothing to fear but fear itself because people like Tenma are around.    

All the people I ship romantically with this character:
I don’t really care who it is as long as it seems plausible, and the person is a good match for him.

My non-romantic OTP for this character:
Seriously, he’s the magnum opus for non-romantic OTPs.  So, my answer is going to be all 7 billion people on Earth.

My unpopular opinion about this character:
He probably should have died or have been paralyzed after being hit by a car twice.

One thing I wish would happen/had happened with this character in canon:
It would have been nice if Tenma could have adopted the twins when they were children, and they could have lived together in a nice, cozy home.  Also, it would’ve been nice if both twins tried to become Tenma’s assistants…